There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

19/10/1989
currently a nothing
Westside, Singapore

simple is nothing
nothing is simple

lamb chop is loved
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I feel so sorry for lamb chop.
I worry for her every now and then.
What will become of her in the future?

Of course I want the best for her.
Even though she ain't my daughter.
I looked upon her as my little sister.

I want her to have a beautiful childhood.
I want everything to be perfect.

She means everything to me.
Her laughter, cries and smiles.
A day without her seems like a thousand years.

I thank God for bringing her into this world.
Colouring my black and white potrait.
Telling me there's more to life.

You're my only joy.
You're my only tears.

'Jialat'.
I'm back to square one.
What the fuck 'sia'.

Here's a shout out:
"I-phone si bei sucks lah".
"Haptic! Haptic!".

I'm sick of sushi now.
I'm craving for 'ddeok bokki'.
I'm addicted to chocopie now.

To people who gives out flyers for a living.
I feel/share your pain.
It ain't easy.

It took me half an hour.
To give out a freaking thick stack of flyers.
How do I do it?

Flash a big BIG big smile.
Say "Thank You" if people take the damn flyer.
Say it with full of energy!

Ha-ha!
Easy peasy aye?

She's taking advantage of you.
I told you not to help them.
But you wouldn't listen.

You're afraid they'll get offended.
What kind of fucking excuse is that?
No wonder they're stepping all over you.

You don't fucking listen to me.
Then you'll get all stressed up.
Vent your fucking frustrations on me.

I'm not a tool.
I have feelings too.
I don't wanna listen to shits everyday.

Recently my head gets all tight.
This only happens whenever I feel angry.
Fuck it.

She's such a fucking fool.
I'm talking about my momma.

I take my hats off for momma.
Who would wanna accompany me?
Under the sorching sun.

I think this is it.
Even though I didn't make it to Poly.
God has other things in store for me.

Alhamdulilah.

I got hired.
I'm so happy and nervous.
I'm gonna collect my uniform tomorrow.
Momma's accompanying me.

I know, what's up with that?
Eventually she talked to me this morning.
She wanted to fry banana fritters.
She needed my help at that point of time.

I hate her.
But I love her so much.
I hate to lose her too.
Because I only have 1 mother in this world.

That's why I call myself stupid.
I'm a sucker for this kinda "thing".
Syukur Alhamdulilah.
God has given me, rezeki.

I'm thankful for that.
I really hope history don't repeat itself.
I don't want the same thing to happen.
Just like when I was in Haagen Dazs.
Not forgetting fucking Starbucks.

I'm one step closer to my goals now.
I'm one step closer to Daesung Oppa.
I'm so excited and nervous.

=)

The weather's really humid.
I'm just watching tv.
Yet I feel so warm and icky.

Mom's ignoring me.
Just because I yelled at her.
Like what the fuck?

Having a shot gun marriage?
Or get yelled at?
Which is worse?

Just shoot me.
I'm sick and tired of this shit.

Just gimme 3 weeks.
I'm sure I can make it.
I'm so fucking sure about it.

Maybe after all of that.
Employers out there.
Will find me more appealing.

I'm so in love with Samsung Haptic.
It's sooooooo freaking pretty.
I want it in pink!

Maybe by the time I've got a job.
And after I've saved enough.
There'll be more to choose from.
Even better than Haptic?

Heh.
Me and my angan-angan.
I hate my hair.
Well, just one part of it.

Yun Nam?
Beijing 101?
Any hair care centre will do.
Of course; gotta consider the haram & halal.

I can't take it anymore.
I just hope for a 4 tonne lorry to hit me.
I will go crazy sooner or later.

Seriously, just fucking get a divorce.
It's getting on my nerves.
Both of you are lucky enough.
At least I didn't go astray.

One is an egoistic stubborn faggot.
The other is wasting money,
on a fucking idiot who doesn't appreciate.
I don't fucking understand!

Your fucking son is just using you.
Using all your money.
You can't give me money to buy ledger paper.
But you could fork out hundreds of dollars.
Just to settle that idiot's overdue bills.

Like what the fuck?
Now you tell me why I've lost the will to study.
I just don't fucking get it.
I really don't.

It's just fate.
That I have two morons for parents.
Two idiotic most ungrateful step-brothers.
And female version of that faggot as my sister.

I'd rather have nothing at all.
Than to have such people in my life.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm stupid.
Stupid enough to help them every time.

I'm a fucking dumb ass.
A fucking loser.
That's what I am.

그 사람을 좋아한다.
그 사람을 사랑한다.
하지만!
그 사람은 몰랐어.
어떻게?!

It was slightly cold.
The weather seemed familiar.

It brought back memories back in 2005.
When my buddy had to leave for America.
That same feeling.

It was also the same feeling.
The same routine I went through.
My journey to College East, every morning.

I know I sound a little crazy.
But even the smell of the rain was familiar.
The way it falls to the earth.
I felt a sense of warmth from it.

I may not have many friends.
I may not have many close friends.
I may not have many best friends.

But at the very least.
I know what's it like.
To have a true friend.

For 2 solid months.
Life couldn't get better. (suju's song 'miracle')
Slacking like nobody's business.
I'm 'enjoying' life damn it.

2 more days to ITE Graduation Day.
That reminds me of something.
Why do people keep pestering me to take a diploma?
You pay for the fees ah! Fucking chi bai!
Talk so much.

Some even suggested for a private diploma.
Oei! Siao bo?
The main point is I do not want to study.
I've lost the will to study.
Why can't they understand my simple theory?
Those wussies and pussies.

Mom keep comparing me with my sister.
Like what the fuck?
It has always been like that.
Like I'm the lazy one.
While she's the hardworking one.

Why?
Just because she's earning some cash.
And of course mom's loving it.
She's a fucking money-minded bitch.

I don't get it sometimes.
Stop comparing me with my sister.
That's her life.
Who she wants to be.
What she wants to do.

I am me.
I have my own goals.
Damn it.





Singlish! Wah si bei lah.. The other day, that pussy chatted with me on msn. Come on lah. I know she's afraid liao. Not happy come and settle with me lah. Like what the fuck. Hide behind your comp screen. Kan na sai! Seriously, you insulted my family and now you wanna act big. Si bei lah.. You just watch out lah tomorrow. What the fuck sia? Make me so pissed.





I've got nothing else to say. Wealth is everything huh? Go fuck some money then. Stuff some money up your asses. Wear em' too! I do not understand these people sometimes. What is wrong with their minds? Brain damage? I think they need me to dig their brains out. Gotta do some brain washing with chlorine and softener.

It's not like I work for the printing money company. I've got nothing else to give. I can't even find a job for myself. It always have to do with your interests and not mine. I did found a perfect job 2 years ago and was forced to quit after I worked for 1 fucking day only! Why? Because of you!

I was forced to choose between my studies and my job. Like what the fuck? What the fuck is wrong with these people? Whenever I did household chores, they thought I've been slacking at home, sleeping like a pig and watching tv. Whenever I didn't do household chores, they thought the floor was clean and I did a good job maintaining my bedroom. What?

BritishIndia. Like what the fuck? I know nothing about the fashion industry. But I need a job. I had enough of rotting at home for 1 month+ since the last day of school. Firefighter? Immigration Officer?

I'm addicted to "We Got Married". Credits to coolsmurf for subbing the episode. I can't wait for Hwangbo and Hyun Joong (?) couple to be aired this week. I feel sorry for my small teacher. She's having a hard time in poly. I wished I was with her. Actually, I wanted to give her a surprise. But I'm not sure if it's ever gonna happen. I tried my best to get through ufotown and even iple account.

I tried to apply for Cassiopeia but it's only for korean citizens. Even the global fanclub hasn't been activated yet. I looked for their homepage, cyworld and even youtube accounts. Finally I got it! I've sent my request. I'm hoping that whoever reads it will get back to me as soon as possible. Hyung! Him ne seh yo! (Have strength!)

For the last time you wussy, I ain't a lesbian. I make it clear to you. I am straight! No I'm not obsessed about marrying a korean or japanese or chinese. It's just music. Music is universal. A wussy like you can never understand this thing called music appreciation.

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