Thursday, January 31, 2008
Feel super lazy today.
Free from sb-hv's clutches now.
Will look forward to tomorrow.
Who care's about yesterday.
Irritated & frustrated.
Exhausted & confused.
Famish but full.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Apparently I was too lazy.
Nasi lemak plan was cancelled.
But still went to school with hyung.
Went to sb-hv after school.
Had a convo with bur.
A very long convo.
But I was so keen on quiting.
Nevermind about sb-hv.
I'm never gonna patronise that place.
Or any other stores.
Gotta pass resignation letter to bur tomorrow.
& I don't really feel like going back again.
Had dinner at Jurong Point with my momma.
& lamb chop.
Now everybody's gone.
It's me & old man at home.
I'm sleeping with the lights on.
Heck it.
I'm moving on.
Who cares what other people think?
Shitheads & bastards.
Ya'll shall get your retribution one day.
Not from me.
But from Him.
Ya'll shall pay for this shit.
Damn.
Monday, January 28, 2008
I've decided to quit.
Not only did I neglected my studies.
I missed hanging out with hyung too!
& talk nonsense with mat & trilogy.
Went to school for a freaking test.
Had lunch with the rest.
Unfortunately mat didn't eat.
I think there's something she's eyeing for.
Maybe laptop or....
Reached home & found my things lying around.
I know it's lamb chop's fault.
Always messing with my stuff.
Been thinking about how I can make money.
Maybe I should focus everything on studies right now.
Since it's final term so why not give my all.
Think I'll go job hunting after I'm done with finals.
Good decision?
I think so.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
This is the last time.
That I'm ever gonna eat junk food.
Me wants to shed 3kgs each week.
I don't know if I can achieve it.
But I'm gonna try.
I seriously hate SB-HV.
Starbucks Holland Village.
The workplace suck.
The people suck.
Including the managers.
Everything suck.
In conclusion,
I'm sick & tired of working as a barista.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I got three choices now.
It's either I get into Poly, SCDF or prison officer.
Sounds cool?
I'm really worried about the cut off points.
How's life so far?
School's school.
Work's work.
My pink aura ain't shining.
Not interested in anyone.
Nothing much to update.
I'm trying to be positive at all times.
I don't think I lose any weight.
That's cause I've been sleeping too much.
Too much sleeping can make you gain weight.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I am freaking scared.
What if the cut off points for gpa increases?
Why am I so dumb?
Why why why?!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Exhausted.
Mentally & physically.
The fact that I'm slower than my peers makes me worried.
But I am trying my best to catch up.
I wanna make sure I do my best since it's my last term.
I really hope I can make it to Poly.
Dang. Because of a stupid C.
I hope He fulfills my wish.
I gave my all. It's all up to Him now.
I really don't like this particular person at SB-HV.
He gives me the creeps.
I'm really not interested in guys.
Not that I'm lesbian or anything.
But I'm not interested at all.
I'm there to work & make new friends(if possible).
Maybe I've been single for a long long time.
Who cares.
I'm single & I'm loving it.
I just found a tiny mole near my ribs about 5cm below my right boob.
Haha. I never noticed it whenever I shower until that day.
Was doing some boob massage to prevent boobs cancer. Haha.
&& found it! Super cute. =)
I want to meet Big Bang sooooo bad.
I already missed End Year Concert in Seoul.
Missed Virgin Hitz Awards in Thailand.
Dae Sung Oppa. =(
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Neglected.
Depressed.
Sudden sadness.
Overcoming my emotions is the greatest obstacle.
I just feel like a total loser right now.
I don't feel good today.
Everything's changed ever since I started working.
Sometimes I feel like quiting.
But I can't bear to see mom cry again.
It's gonna end soon.
I wonder what's it gonna be like when they divorce.
I think I'm going crazy.
The fact that I've been having negative thoughts proves that I am.
I've ever felt like stabbing a person & dig his guts out.
I've ever had the urge to chop a person's head.
Astarghfirullah Halaazim.I've committed
alot of sins.
Dang. I feel so lousy today.
I don't wish to connect with partners at SB-
HV.
I don't think I have common things with them.
I don't see the need to have conversations.
I don't feel easy at all.
Cliques are forming there.
I'm not the kind who likes to butt in.
I'm nice to people.
But some of them keep giving me fucked up faces.
Hypocrites!
I do not know who to trust.
Everyone's a hypocrite.
I
should've just stick to sales line.
It's even better. $6.10 per hr.
I'm 18.
I'd love to work in CD stores.
If I wasn't a
muslim, I'd be a hooker.
But the fact that I'm born a
muslim.
I'm thankful for that.
Syukur Alhamdulilah.I'm worried whether I can get into Poly.
Because of my previous grades for getting a freaking C.
My GPA got affected. Instead of getting a 3.8, it's 3.625.
I should just kill myself.
Not that I haven't done it before.
I admit I do not have a huge circle of
acquaintances.
But that doesn't mean I do not have a life.
I'm too scared to have fun.
Seeing teens, even
muslims get
drunk, have sex makes me wonder.
I'm not an angel myself.
But at least I don't drink, club & have sex.
Why the fuck am I talking about these things?
My period's just passed 2 days ago.
Not supposed to have
pms.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Updates.
Occupied by school & work.
Shouldn't have gone to West Coast.
Because of that, I hurt my legs.
Couldn't get outta bed.
Missed lessons.
Broke a promise with hyung.
Was suppose to have lunch with her at cafe 2.
I'm such an asshole.
A real BIG asshole.
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Cramps, cramps & cramps.
How I hate having periods.
Gives me pimples & cramps.
I'm working at 3pm - 11pm today.
I haven't shower yet.
I'm having cramps & feel like shitting too.
I received a letter from Seo Young yesterday.
She wrote everything in korean.
Except for some minor parts.
I really don't have the mood to blog.
School's final term gonna start very soon.
Hope there's no S&W so me & hyung can have our breakfast.
*random*I do not know who are my friends now.
I feel like erasing them all.
I do not know who to trust.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Blog's a little dead.
No pictures & music.
That's cause I don't own a built-in camera cellphone or digicam
& my fingers ain't cooperating.
Will be getting a new pair of specs in February.
That's when I'm getting my first pay.
Today, I saw old man praying.
Actually lamb chop, mom & I went out for dinner.
When we reached home, we saw him praying in his room.
*MIRACLE*
life couldn't get better... nana na na na... Unfortunately, his attitude is still the same.
Yep. He's still an asshole. A big one.
I'm working tomorrow from 9am - 5pm. Sounds good?
Will be doing closing on Saturday. Sunday's my day off.
Planning to get my school stuff ready.
I hate doing closing. The mop was freaking heavy.
I was literally lifting weights yesterday at 12++am.
I'm lucky enough the toilet's not THAT dirty. Worth it.
Brought home ugly chicken puff, chicken quiche,
holiday beef pie, peachy danish & tuna melts cabiatta.
Swell~! I didn't ate much today.
I had 3
roti telur in small sizes of course, a small bowl of
bee hoon soto & a glass of ice lemon tea. Drank plentiful of water too.
No fruits at all. Cause we don't have it at home
& too poor to buy. ('o,') I'm so bored now.
There's nothing to do.
I'm planning to get myself a khaki hot pants, tank top
& knitted sweater at a budget of 30 bucks.
I'm not sure about this myself.
I know bottoms cost more than tops.
We'll see. Hehz
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Didn't went to work yesterday.
Supposed to do closing. Unfortunately, I had backache.
I got burns & bruises due to work.
If this goes on I'm definitely gonna lose weight.
Yipee!
I have work today. Doing closing again.
This time I have to work with A & Y.
I hate working with Y.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
So shagged right now.
I did closing yesterday.
Will opt for 11pm when sch term starts.
If I do closing all the time, think my studies gonna drop.
Need money so badly.
Since that asshole doesn't have a stable job.
He's always complaining that he's paying for the utilities & stuff.
It's your responsibility! Then why get married & have two kids?
Dumb fucker. I feel so neglected.
I have parents who fucked each other but doesn't know how to take care of their own kids.
Seriously, they shouldn't have fucked. Okay fine. Fuck all they want.
Why didn't they abort me? Maybe give me up for adoption.
Dang. Fuckers.
